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|Thursday, January 7th, 2010|
Long rant, I needed this off my chest
We really want to believe that we are the captain of our ship, running what we think is our reality. I think this could only be partially correct at most.
There is a great deal of reality outside of us, and a universal knowledge of this unknown is something which does make all humans similiar. There are external forces at work which humans could not control, and these forces shape us, direct us, and control us.
I bring up brainwashing now, to underscore the extent to which the brain operates without any conscious control from the brain owner. Brainwashing can be easily done (the "snapping" technique, which will have a person, willingly or unwillingly, programmed in five days) and is not just sinister and unethical but immediately puts the spotlight on the deceptive nature of the human brain itself - just what are we in control of? Can an individual be completely controlled by someone else? (Actually, yes). Is it at all possible to make a choice or decision based upon completely inner convictions and influences? And if so, how do we determine when those convictions and influences which we feel shape us were not external themselves, i.e, taught or conditioned since birth? We feel correct in raising a human by instilling proper values but where did those come from? And more precisely, what is freedom? How can we possibly believe in the concept of freedom when we as individuals are not the sole executors of ourselves?
Don't get me wrong - freedom is necessary and without it, ironically, you take away a piece of the human being, the entity itself. When we cannot move freely, create freely, choose to do as we want with ourselves freely (at least as much as we like to think we are) then no human is really free. As long as any form or discrimination is allowed and practiced, or certain groups are treated differently than other groups, no one is really free. I promise you that. When laws and regulations are continaully created and enforced limiting movements, creations, personal habits and activities, we are stripping away pieces of the human being and its individual freedom. When we try to put limits on the ability of the human to be stupid, we lose our humanity.
Our freedom is badly threatened right now, and much of this is hidden by the powerful brainwashing placed upon the common people not just here in the United States but worldwide. The easiest way to control people is through money, and the method is usually fear. People are scared and broke, that's definitely true. This process will continue, and though you probably would not recognize it as such, what this process is called is Economic Enslavement. This process has been happening and you probably already know some people trapped in this form of slavery: the unwed mother encouraged to have more babies for government support, the father employed but crushed by debt, the homeless man unable to rent an apartment because of bad credit.
The middle class has been dissolving for the last decade, and while a few politicians have faked their concern for this, no one has actually done anything about it. Again, we want to be taken care of. We don't want to have the bad conscience. We want to be tucked into bed, patted on the head, told everything is going to be alright. Brainwashing everyday, everywhere you go, has ensured this process for actually many decades. Apathy and fear go hand in hand, fueling eachother. Men aren't men anymore, women aren't women. Everyone around is allowing there brains to rot and wither under the glare and overstimulation of video games, hours of television, countless dollars you don't have spent on shit you don't need. Fewer and fewer visitors at libraries, more high school dropouts, more pregnant teenagers, more apathy, more of a lack of regard for the dumbing down of our people, no outrage regarding this to be allowed to develop. Didn't anyone ever read Common Sense
by Thomas Payne? "Do not allow the citizens of a nation of be ignorant. Educate onself, make oneself aware. An ignorant nation is one most likely deposed to tyranny."
Oh yes, ignorance is alive and well here, and so tyranny is alive and well. Don't think for a minute you're getting out of it. The process started before you were born, and will be hell for your children. (Case in point: don't have babies. They tend to further the problem, this proliferation of people). The sooner you face the fact we're fucked, the wiser you will be.
Remember this though: it is better to die a free man than live as a slave. Evil triumphs when good men do nothing. Think about that. When the hour comes, will you be prepared to fight? Current Mood: contemplative
Silence is Golden, but DUCT TAPE is Silver. Current Mood: amused
|Thursday, December 18th, 2008|
Today my boss calls and Teri and I can't go to work, too much snow and it's still snowing.
The snow finally stopped after nearly two full days, by this afternoon. There's about two feet out there. I'm lucky compared to all the suckers who had their cars parked in the snow. They are BURIED! Mine has been safe in the garage a block from my apartment. Getting to work tomorrow is an entirely different story. Current Mood: anxious
|Wednesday, December 17th, 2008|
It's been snowing all day. It'll probably snow all night. Now I'm real nervous about getting to work tomorrow. Current Mood: discontent
|Monday, April 14th, 2008|
Rethink your conventional wisdom and traditional ways, maybe then you stand a chance at survival in the next moment.
|Tuesday, November 27th, 2007|
So I come to this again. It consumes my mind sometimes. I have been sitting here at my desk at work, thinking about the war, peace, humanity, life...you name it. It occurred to me that if I am lucky enough to live a long and happy life without surviving for a time on wheat and dirt in a fox hole for seven years purifying my own urine for drinking water, I'll smile and die happy.
I'd like to think that life will go on...for a time anyway. There will be wars, contention, killing. Gas prices will go up, then down, then up again, maybe we won't need gas period. People will continue to complain about the depravity of humanity. Hate crimes, segregation and bigotry in some form will continue. As long as people believe they have God, whatever their interpretation of God may be, on their side, it will continue. No matter what religion you practice or claim, your God will always reward his faithful and damn everyone else. Unfortunately, what it means to be one of God's faithful varies widely. From Christian to Buddhist, Jewish to Muslim, Bah hai to Mormon to Baptist to Lutheran to Catholic, we all think we are right, and every one else is in the dark. To quote Richard Dawkins, "We are all atheist about most Gods humanity ever believed in...".
The pious believe it is their responsibility (or privilege) to prove the absolute rightness (?) of their religion, to show those in the dark the error of their ways. To show them the light. It's a dispute as old as humanity, the reason there is unrest in the middle east, the reason for apartheid, America, kingdoms crumbling, The Spanish Inquisition, the reformation, guillotining, the rack, the thumb screw, the chastity belt, sacrifice, wars, wars, wars, so on and so forth etc., etc., etc....you get the idea.
In my humble opinion, one of the following will have to occur before all of humanity is at peace...or dead; Christ himself will have to descend from Heaven with pomp and grandeur and end all arguments, as most christians believe he will. It might be stopped by the decimation of all life by some unstoppable force from the outer reaches of the universe. Such as a Gamma ray blast, a ravenous black hole, and asteroid, the birth of a new star in our galaxy, or the death of our sun.
We might even war our selves to death. Each Army of people confident that they are right, God is on their side. Or, perhaps, we will inadvertently succeed in what we have been warned against time and time again. Killing the Earth. The only planet in our Solar System capable of sustaining our existence. Pick your poison. Those, in my opinion are the only ways of settling this crazy dispute. As long as people continue to believe that there is only one way, their way, to live, there will never be peace.
Am I right? Or am I just being pessimistic?
-end rant- Current Mood: thoughtful
|Wednesday, November 21st, 2007|
I had a dream about seducing my father the other night. It's been about a week and a half since I last got laid. I think I need to hurry up and make some whoopie so I'll stop having weird sex dreams.
|Monday, November 12th, 2007|
In utter desperation, I wish for death right now.
Please God, make this pain go away...
|Saturday, November 3rd, 2007|
I had a mental breakdown last night. Current Mood: sad
|Thursday, November 1st, 2007|
Halloween is over. It went very quickly. I went to a random party that was ok. There were two guys that were dressed as Barney and Adrian the Chippendales Dancers from one of my all time favorite Chris Farley SNL skits. The guy dressed as Barney wasn't fat enough to be Barney. Chris Farley's size is what made the skit so great. I love it.
Also, on a whim, I died my platinum blonde peekaboo highlights fire engine red. So, now my hair is black, dark brown and red. I like it. Current Mood: amused
|Sunday, October 28th, 2007|
I think the garbage bags we have are folded inside-out. I don't really mind, I like flipping them so they're the right way.
I'm cleaning my room now a bit. I always start cleaning and end up on here though, so we'll see how much I get done. Current Mood: okay
|Wednesday, October 24th, 2007|
I feel hungry yet have no desire to eat. I'm so tired of this... Current Mood: annoyed
|Sunday, October 21st, 2007|
I burned the plastic while attempting to heat potatoes.
|Saturday, October 20th, 2007|
|Wednesday, October 17th, 2007|
occurred to me while reading about the transmission of radio waves into outer space by S.E.T.I.. The vastness of the known universe is incomprehensible. Is God, if he really is there, intercepting those transmissions like a protective parent intercepts a heavy vase before it topples over onto the curious infant who pulled it over? Does he/she even care? Is our (religious or otherwise) idea of God even accurate? At times it seems he really is a creation of man. A scapegoat, a reason for when things get shitty beyond our control. We talk about him/her like he/she is, again, like a parent who throws things at us in mortality to teach us a lesson, or to help us a figure things out, like a parent teaches obedience by taking away privileges for misbehavior. Do we ask ourselves; "what does God want me to learn from this?" Because we need a reason, a purpose for our pain? The alternative? That my life is the result of my and lets face it, others' choices, rather than and all knowing, all powerful creator. Is there really, religiously or otherwise a way our life is truly our own? Are we are all at the mercy of The Omnipotent, or the hypothetical drunk driver... I have no idea. Current Mood: contemplative
Last night I had a dream that I was at the last public school I went to (I'm home-schooled) and it was a halloween party. Leonard Nimoy ended up making an appearance dressed up as Spock. Once I saw him I started crying hysterically and then got myself together to go get an autograph.
I also ended beating people up. Whenever I dream about public school, I always beat someone up. It's weird, it's not like I got in a lot of physical fights or anything.
I'm wearing a Doctor Who scarf. I'm being the fourth doctor for halloween. Current Mood: cold
|Tuesday, October 16th, 2007|
What 's the difference between a geek and a nerd? Current Mood: curious
|Monday, October 15th, 2007|
This is my beautiful baby girl, Mona Lisa, happily munching on a mealworm: Current Mood: awake
I just spent 200 dollars on a new printer and microsoft office word 2007. YAY!! Money well spent. You know what this means! I can truly start writing... Current Mood: excited